One thing that I've always known, and thought I payed attention to was the saying.."Life goes on, with or without you."
And well.. it's starting to hit home, that life is going on.. and it's going on without me. I mean, I always made excuses for myself for not doing the things I "should" be doing.. and some are legitimate ..but basically I screwed up and did absolutely nothing for 5 years, and wether my reasoning is legitimate or not, that's what happened, and now I feel as though I'm being left behind. Well.. I am being left behind. I'm not even close to where I should be. I want to be.. but I'm not. I should be graduating this year, getting into college, getting a job..but I'm not. And why not? Because I screwed up! I know that, everyone else knows that, it's just so overwhelming to try and get back on track.. I "tried" before, but even I don't think I tried that hard, because if I did, I probably would have succeeded. What I don't understand is why things are so easy for other people, and not for me. I'm a smart girl... I understand things. Math for example, I've always gotten good grades in math.. but now I don't get any of it because I haven't done it in so long...I mean, I've been "enrolled" in math every day for the last 5 years, summers included, but I haven't actually done any of it. Which makes me see even more, just how much time I wasted!! Everyone told me that this would happen.. but did I listen.. kind of. I thought I did at the time.. but apparently I didn't. But that seems to be a pattern with me.. I make mistakes, and don't realize I'm making them at the time.. then it blows up in my face. A close friend of mind uses a pretty interesting analogy. Baking. I love to bake cookies...but I burn them ALL THE TIME! ..And well.. sometimes..I even burn the house down.. the house seems to be burning down an awful lot lately. And to be honest..
I'M GONNA GO CRAZY!!
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I have a bit of a rant as well.. as if that ^up there wasn't kind of in the rant category... But there's something that's really bothering me, and I'd like your opinion on wether it's really a big deal or if I'm overreacting.. Now, this thing that's bothering me, is a song. Yes, a song. It's called "Smack That" by Akon. Soooo many people love the song, and yeah, it's got a cool addicting beat if that's the type of music you're into, but the words are horribly offensive!.. I mean, I'm not gonna go off about how "men view women as sex objects" ..because women are just as bad for viewing men that way too! But, do we really need to grind it into our brains through ipods and mp3 players? I mean, the words of this song say things like..
"And possibly bend you over,
Look back and watch me smack that,
all on the floor,
smack that,
give me some more,
smack that,
'till you get sore."
..And that's not even the half of it!!(It gets worse..) That's just the chorus! (If you can call THAT a chorus!) And as for the video.. it shows Akon("Konvict") in a jail cell..he makes a deal and gets a 24hr release, and the rest of the video(which is ALL OVER television and internet for anyone of any age to see!) is full of strippers!(By the way, I know this because friends of mine, and my sister, love this song..it's even my sister's ringtone!) Where do we draw the line? People argue and say it's just times changing, but if that's the case, what's our world gonna be like in 30 or 40 years? Is it just gonna be one big orgy or something? (..my baby sister, who's only eight, SINGS ALONG TO THIS!! ..Personally I think that's disgusting, but I'm not her parent..) Well anyways, I think that's about all I have time to say today. See ya!
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Or not!! This is the 3rd time I've come back to this post, adding stuff!! Maybe I'm just.. angry today.. I don't feel angry, I'm just... opinionated! Yes! Opinionated! That's the word! I was just listening to music on my TV..digital cable is a wonderful thing. But they were playing a song by Panic at the Disco.. and one of the lines was "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damn door, no!" Well..guess what word they chose to beep out!? The song said.. "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the *** damn door, no!" Are you kidding!? Since when is GOD a bad word? Isn't it usually the FOUR letter words that are beeped out? ARGH! Again, I repeat!
I'M GONNA GO CRAZY!!
5 comments:
They censored "God" on Jerry Springer once in the United States too. I think that the intent was to avoid offending people.
As for the rap song, I'm all for free speech, but when it borders on hate speech, well, let's just say not so much.
Kudos to you for saying that some women treat men as sex objects too. Equal rights doesn't mean special rights.
Alright, first of all in response to that.. They tried to avoid offending people on Jerry Springer? Is that some kind of JOKE!?
As as for the comment on "Equal rights doesn't mean special rights." Completely in agreement on that one!! I have some views that people might not agree with as well. I mean, I do agree that women were right to fight for rights to be able to do certain things...but I mean, there really are downfalls to feministic views. Such as, now that women work, there are many, many more latch key kids, who some may say have too much freedom(and that's why the violence and drug abuse..), or maybe it's the opposite, mommy says they have to come straight home from school and stay inside the house until dinner, which gives the kid what? Time to watch TV and stuff his or her face with cookies? Talk about giving a child deadly weapons..their health is through the window! Another thing is how women want all the same rights and privelages as a man.. and yet don't want the same responsibility. I mean, when it comes to dating too. Or raising a family.. If the woman works as well as the man, they should share ALL responsibilites.. maybe the woman should pick up the tab every once and a while(though tradition and romance..which women LIKE...say otherwise!) And maybe the man should stay home and watch the kids while mom goes to the bar with friends? You know? It's all about the lines...it's all grey...there are no lines. I think we need lines! GIVE US LINES! Hey wait.. we have them.. they're outlined in the bible!! ;)
Let's try something here shall we?
big breath iiiinn
hold
hold
hold
big breath oouuut.
good. again.
there...now I can talk.
Jess....please please please don't look at yourself as a failure. God is very proud of you!! He loves and values you! And nothing's blowing up in your face...nothing you bake ever burns!! He's in control! When you talk like that, you're implying that He's not! Maybe this is God saying He has bigger plans for you...and to follow Him in restoring your path! But don't think that you've deviated too far! Because God uses EVERY EXPERIENCE!! You are not a failure. Don't fail to understand that.
Just going back to the bit on censorship and Jerry Springer... it's not really the producers of the show that control censorship, it's the network and the government that control it. Not really a surprise, considering the influence of the right-wing in the U.S.
Most people don't think of "God" as a bad word, but some people take using the Lord's name in vain very seriously. A lot of people in the U.S. 'Bible Belt' probably do, for example.
It's good to get those rants out there. Feel any better now?
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