Adventure?

So I was out with a pretty good friend of mine today, and well, he likes adventures. And I'd call today a bit of an adventure, we decided to drive to where the pretty clouds were.. but then realized we'd be swimming by the time we got there..so we didn't... but that's okay! But then I started to think about clouds, and sunsets, and sunrises, and how pretty our sky is....

It's not what you take. It's what you give.

A new song I came across that I like.. It's called "All About U" By Classified feat. Chad Hatcher. There is some profanities throughout...not my usual blogging style.. but well, I like the song, and I like what is says.


Life’s not what you take,
it’s not about the promises you make.
It’s not about the friends you might have made or love that is gone.
Life is what you give, it’s not about the stupid things you did.
Its not about the way things could have been, it’s about moving on.

It’s all about you.
So every morning when you wake
before the first step that you take,
Just think it’s all what you make it,
and you’ll make it through.

This life will leave you stressed out,
left out,
with your neck out,
ain’t nothing changed.
Real life,
so we deal right,
but it feels like
its something strange.
We wondering,
the dumbest things,
and let every thing get under our skin.
Trouble again,
trying to impress somebody else is fucked in the head.
So do you.
You’ll never make everyone happy,
it just won’t happen.
But the end of the day when all say is said,
you better be ready to go back at ‘em.
I learn slow, my verse show’s my growth my wisdom.
If your positive or you negative,
It don’t make a difference not when you living.
‘Cause some of the most successful people on this planet,
will kill them selves or somebody else.
Life they really couldn’t manage.
Then we got bums,
alcoholics on the streets.
With no stress,
no where to rest,
no where to dress,
no where to sleep.
And the say: fuck my morals,
I'm drinking away my sorrows,
I’m living life and I’m happy,
I ain’t thinking about tomorrow.

It’s all about you.
So every morning when you wake
before the first step that you take,
just think it’s all what you make it,
and you’ll make it through.

Life is what it brings,
it’s not about cars and fancy things.
Or hair salons and diamond rings girls.
Don’t you lose no sleep.
Life is all about, the things you’ll never figure out.
It’s all about the people you love, and memories you keep.

This here is life,
so tell me who chooses what’s wrong and right.
Is it what we see on TV,
get a job raise a family.
That’s how I was raised,
how I was brought up,
get a wife a son and a daughter.
That’s how I was taught to be proper,
never thought anyone can get caught up.
But slowly I grew up,
and the fairy tail quickly vanished.
Realized that life’s a bitch,
and shit you gotta be able to stand it.
And you gotta be able to handle it,
the stress and the pressure you channel it.
And you learn to cope at the end of your rope,
anyway that you can with liquor or dope.
Or work hard raise your kids, strip clubs or what ever it is.
Smoke weed,
shoot hoops.
What ever you find your happiness through.
It’s your life.
Just make sure you know what you want when you go to get it.
Keep doing this shit for you.
Not your crew,
or the dude you tryin' to impress kid.
Life is simple, life is hard, and yeah life is fun.
So enjoy the things around you.
Before your life is done.

It's all about you.
So every morning when you wake
before the first step that you take,
just think it’s all what you make it,
and you’ll make it through.

Who? / What?

Have you ever wondered who you're supposed to be? Or what you're supposed to be doing? Maybe even tried to figure out what other people think you should be doing? Or maybe you've been stuck in the middle.. thought you knew.. thought you had it all figured out.. but now you're not so sure anymore? Hmmm... thoughts.. The End.

Embrace it!

Hello.. This post is gonna be about embracing who you are, and who everyone else is! ..Let me explain. A lot of people always find something wrong with themselves, and/or others. This isn't just about your own image, it's about everyone else's too. ..Well.. guess what! Embrace EVERYONE.. tall, short, skinny, fat, "ugly", "pretty" ..(Those are in quotations because they are both in the eye of the beholder!).. Check this picture out.

I'll explain what that's about... All those women are wearing the same red bathing suit, with their current weight written across the chest. I think that's soooooo cool! This quote followed the picture...

"Every woman has something in her life she has to fight to overcome…whether it’s a body issue, a relationship crisis, an emotional challenge or a fashion emergency! Rather than wallowing in the negative, why not embrace the positive?" -Tyra Banks

It's Valentine's Day on Wednesday, eh? Or singles' awareness day as some like to call it.. I don't see it as such a big deal, everyone makes it out to be this HUGE thing.. when really, it's just an excuse to tell someone you like them, or give a girlfriend or boyfriend a gift. I mean, so what if you're single on valentine's day? Give a friend a card or something! haha.. I mean, even if you don't have a "significant other" .. you're never truly single.. that's what friends are for, right? Well..... unless all your friends have dates.. and you really are left alone.. but even then, who cares? Any other day if all your friends were busy it wouldn't be so bad.. so why does it have to be bad on Valentine's Day? Sheesh. It never ceases to amaze me how everyone blows everything WAYYYYY out of proportion..

Colour..

Don't tell me to colour inside the lines.

Not Such A Baby Anymore.

It was my baby sister's birthday today. And well.. I guess I've got to stop calling her my "baby" sister... she's 9 as of today. Where did THAT come from? I remember when my mom was pregnant.. and when she was born.. I used to ask my mom if I could do laundry because I loved the little baby clothes. :P Well.. anyways.. We went to Woody's for dinner, and for those of you who don't know it, it's a little restaurant in Sidney.. it's 50s themed and it's really beachy.. really cute. She had a sleepover party, so her little girlfriends and her all dressed up 50s themed, it was adorable! We ate dinner, and then order the "Big Kahuna!" ..hehe! They give you a pail, a metal beach pail, filled with chocolate, vanilla, and strawberry ice cream, brownies, candy, whipped cream, and sprinkles... Disgustingly huge, there was 5 of us eating it, and we didn't finish it!! They give everyone a plastic shovel, like the ones that you used to play with in the sand box when you were little.. and everyone just digs in! It's amazing! Messy.. but amazing!

Seeing The World Through A Child's Eyes

I've been thinking a lot about kids lately, and how they see the world so differently than we do. I mean, for the most part, little boys think bugs are soooooo cool, and nail polish on a little girl's toes make her happy for an entire week! Why can't we all be so amazed by such small things? Driving..wows them!.. How amazing, we get to move so much faster!(we're only going 50k/hr) And what about the fact that they want to learn SO badly! I mean, could you imagine if people were as motivated to learn calculous as kids are to learn their ABCs? We'd all be friggin geniouses! ..Just a thought.

It's Raining, It's Pouring...

"Don't knock the weather.

If it didn't change once in a while,

nine out of ten people couldn't start a conversation."

- Kin Hubbard

Weather forecast for tonight: dark.

Continued dark overnight,

with widely scattered light by morning.

-George Carlin

By the way, I absolutely love the rain!

It's Time

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"It's time"

...is the title for this post, and well.. Time meant in a few different ways.. in my last post I mentioned that time was going on without me.. and it's time for a couple of other things too, one is clear.. time for a new post. And number two, well.. I think it's time that I not be such an open book all the time. I have always been a really open and honest person, anything people wanted to know, I'd tell them.. or even if they didn't want to know, my mouth flew open! But you know.. it hasn't really gotten me anywhere. People just form opinions and judgments, even people who say they don't, DO! ...And then they don't want to deal with you anymore.. which is perfectly understandable... I mean, most people who know me, know everything I've done or not done and how I react to everything.. It needs to end because people assume things .. too often, MUCH too often.

Left in the dust...+ Rant 1 & 2

One thing that I've always known, and thought I payed attention to was the saying..

"Life goes on, with or without you."

And well.. it's starting to hit home, that life is going on.. and it's going on without me. I mean, I always made excuses for myself for not doing the things I "should" be doing.. and some are legitimate ..but basically I screwed up and did absolutely nothing for 5 years, and wether my reasoning is legitimate or not, that's what happened, and now I feel as though I'm being left behind. Well.. I am being left behind. I'm not even close to where I should be. I want to be.. but I'm not. I should be graduating this year, getting into college, getting a job..but I'm not. And why not? Because I screwed up! I know that, everyone else knows that, it's just so overwhelming to try and get back on track.. I "tried" before, but even I don't think I tried that hard, because if I did, I probably would have succeeded. What I don't understand is why things are so easy for other people, and not for me. I'm a smart girl... I understand things. Math for example, I've always gotten good grades in math.. but now I don't get any of it because I haven't done it in so long...I mean, I've been "enrolled" in math every day for the last 5 years, summers included, but I haven't actually done any of it. Which makes me see even more, just how much time I wasted!! Everyone told me that this would happen.. but did I listen.. kind of. I thought I did at the time.. but apparently I didn't. But that seems to be a pattern with me.. I make mistakes, and don't realize I'm making them at the time.. then it blows up in my face. A close friend of mind uses a pretty interesting analogy. Baking. I love to bake cookies...but I burn them ALL THE TIME! ..And well.. sometimes..I even burn the house down.. the house seems to be burning down an awful lot lately. And to be honest..

I'M GONNA GO CRAZY!!

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I have a bit of a rant as well.. as if that ^up there wasn't kind of in the rant category... But there's something that's really bothering me, and I'd like your opinion on wether it's really a big deal or if I'm overreacting.. Now, this thing that's bothering me, is a song. Yes, a song. It's called "Smack That" by Akon. Soooo many people love the song, and yeah, it's got a cool addicting beat if that's the type of music you're into, but the words are horribly offensive!.. I mean, I'm not gonna go off about how "men view women as sex objects" ..because women are just as bad for viewing men that way too! But, do we really need to grind it into our brains through ipods and mp3 players? I mean, the words of this song say things like..

"And possibly bend you over,

Look back and watch me smack that,

all on the floor,

smack that,

give me some more,

smack that,

'till you get sore."

..And that's not even the half of it!!(It gets worse..) That's just the chorus! (If you can call THAT a chorus!) And as for the video.. it shows Akon("Konvict") in a jail cell..he makes a deal and gets a 24hr release, and the rest of the video(which is ALL OVER television and internet for anyone of any age to see!) is full of strippers!(By the way, I know this because friends of mine, and my sister, love this song..it's even my sister's ringtone!) Where do we draw the line? People argue and say it's just times changing, but if that's the case, what's our world gonna be like in 30 or 40 years? Is it just gonna be one big orgy or something? (..my baby sister, who's only eight, SINGS ALONG TO THIS!! ..Personally I think that's disgusting, but I'm not her parent..) Well anyways, I think that's about all I have time to say today. See ya!

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Or not!! This is the 3rd time I've come back to this post, adding stuff!! Maybe I'm just.. angry today.. I don't feel angry, I'm just... opinionated! Yes! Opinionated! That's the word! I was just listening to music on my TV..digital cable is a wonderful thing. But they were playing a song by Panic at the Disco.. and one of the lines was "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the God damn door, no!" Well..guess what word they chose to beep out!? The song said.. "Haven't you people ever heard of closing the *** damn door, no!" Are you kidding!? Since when is GOD a bad word? Isn't it usually the FOUR letter words that are beeped out? ARGH! Again, I repeat!

I'M GONNA GO CRAZY!!

Ouch!!

Hello everybody! This morning I had to get some minor surgery on my mouth..wisdom teeth rock, don't they? Mine were doing weirdo things so I had to get all 4 surgically removed, they weren't up yet, and they were still kind of at my jawbone.... I was in surgery for about an hour and a half ..and when I woke up, it didn't hurt too bad.. but I couldn't talk worth crap! My entire face was completely numb.. it was the weirdest feeling in the world! I'm I guess "sensitive" to oranges, they give me bad heartburn and sores in my mouth, and I didn't really think to tell the surgeon this, and when I was "comming to" she gave me orange juice to give me a bit of a sugar boost to help with the waking up process.. I tried to tell her no, but as I said before, I couldn't talk worth crap, let alone think..drugs are interesting.... So now that I'm home I'm on three different perscription pain meds, and an antibiotic.. which I have to take on a strict schedule(middle of the night and all...)I have to take stuff every 3 and 4 hours..all of which I've been strictly instructed to eat pudding or yogurt with(those 2 foods along with apple juice are me complete diet for the next little while..) Good thing I have a mom who will get up in the middle of the night to feed and drug me! Oh! You might find this one kind of funny; When I got home I had to eat pudding immediately and take meds, my face was completely numb so I couldn't tell where to put the food, I tried in the mirror, but guess what! -Mirrors are backwards..and I was on quite the drugs..so for the first two rounds of drug-taking, my mommy had to feed me, the whole scraping my chin with the spoon and all.. wow, what I cool thing to put on a blog for the entire internet world to see..oh well. My dad would like to take pictures because I look funny..chipmunk cheeks and all.. personally I think I just look like I've gained about 100 pounds lol...but that's my dad for ya! But anyways, I think I'm gonna go back to bed. Talk to you later!

Pictures!!

Here are some of the pictures from my trip to Mission this past weekend...

For those of you who are bugging me to see a picture of Jesse, here he is;

Jazzelle(Jesse's younger sister) and I... Yes. She IS as crazy as she looks! Gotta love her!;

This is Joel, Jesse's little brother. ;) I think he's the cute one!!;

Okay, this is Johnny..Jesse's other younger brother. Apparently not the most photogenic of us all..;

Our escapades of meeting up with Lexie and Kenny at the mall..;

We didn't get much shopping done...

Gotta love the leather couches in the middle of the mall!;

...Jesse did however, buy a bright yellow spatula!

My darling Lexie and I.. I haven't seen her since I went to camp two summers ago;

This is Tina, I got to see her while I was over there too,

this lovely girl I only see once every ..oh..four years? But have known since...birth?;

Okay, well that's the end of my picture post! See you later!

Not dead? What?

Well... Just so you all know... I had the most amazing weekend last weekend! I went to Mission to meet Jesse's parents and siblings. I stayed with them for two nights. After being friends with him for 2 years and never meeting his family, I figured it was time... I love them! ..Especially his little brother! He's absolutely adorable! The entire weekend he proved to me over and over again that chivalry may not be completely dead, and hope still remains! On the Saturday night he invited all his friends over for a poker party so that I could meet everyone..well..I also learned how to play poker, and ..well...let's just hope I never make it to Vegas!

Resolutions - Fact or Fiction?

I know it's been not too long since my last post...acctually, it hasn't even been a full 24 hours, but I seem to have this sudden urge to be outspoken, and what better a way than the internet!? It's the start of a new year... Do I have any resolutions? Well..no. I have things that I try to do better, or want to start doing, but to me, it doesn't have to be the start of a new year for me to do them. There's things I decide to do all the time.. I guess making a "new years resolution" is just motivation. False motivation if you ask me, but motivation none the less. And the motivation doesn't even work!! Nobody sticks to new years resolutions! Come on...I mean, really!

So I took a little break from typing as my sister needed use of the computer, so now I think it has acctually been 24 hours since my last post..not that it really matters, I guess that was just filler, but filler is boring, so I'll stop filling!

Now that I'm done filling I'm not so sure I have much else to say.. I do have some questions..

What are your opinions on new years resolutions?

Do you have any?, If so, what are they?

While we're at it....

"Ape juice"

Do any of you know what that might be?? I made up the thing...and I just want to hear what some of you think it might acctually be.. So, leave me a comment and let me know your guess!

Heppy New Year??

Okay, so do any of you ever find that some of the things we say are so incredibly empty? Such as "Hey, how are you?" or "How's it goin'?" Well... What about "Merry Christmas" or Happy New Year!" Do we really mean what we say? Are you even aware of what you're saying?

Merry Christmas - Okay, pretty simple, we want people to have a good Christmas... right?

Happy New Year - Umm..is that a happy new year's eve? Or you want them to be happy for the entire year??

But how many of you have asked someone how they are, and expected them to say good, and if they don't, you're saying "oh gosh, what did I get myself into...?" Or asked someone and not really even realised you even asked them!?

As I'm typing this, I'm thinking I've already said something similar in a previous post, or someone else has.. but... crap happens.. you'll just have to read it twice. So there!